i'm having an argument with someone. a knock-down, drag-out fight. and as we mentioned before, i hate confrontations. step right up ladies and gentlemen, here's a wonderful glimpse into my twisted brain. so, this is a serious topic that we're fighting about. it's something that we've argued about before. i'm not saying i'm right and they're wrong, we just view it very, very differently. but if we're not going to agree about it, we need to just not deal with one another on this thing. this has had me stressed out for going on 48 hrs now.
so, as i mentioned before, i sometimes seek approval and affection. and i hate conflicts. so guess what i do at this stage in the argument? i start caving. out of fear that that other person won't like me or something. i dunno. this is the most thought i've ever given it. headshrinkers, where are you? help me out here. logically, i'm not willing to admit that i'm wrong. but i want the fight to be over. i want the stress gone. so i'm starting to give the other person ways out. things that they can agree with, without losing face. "oh, i'm sure you never mention this or that, but surely you've considered this". knowing full well that if we don't resolve it now, like we've never resolved it in the past, we'll just end up arguing about it again in the future. but i don't care about that. i just want the turmoil to cease now. blah.
it's so cool to know that i'm 32 years old, and i'm behaving the same as i did at 16. no personal growth here...
if that's not scary enough. i have "abba" on my itunes. when i first got my ipod was importing cd's like crazy, someone had that cd. i've never liked abba (except for muriel's wedding), but damnit, that was MORE music to suck into my ipod.
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