randoms

-thanks for sharing your musical tastes. i'm on my third laptop in 3 weeks, but i think it's finally the "one" for the next year (or more hopefully). so i'm going to get serious about getting my music together and on my mp3 player.

-work bites. i've spent today on conference calls with lawyers. i'm a geeky computer tech. i shouldn't ever be having such calls. 'nuff said.

-i've been without my motorcycle since saturday. with only 2600 miles on it, they've had to tear the heads off of engine because it burned over a quart and a half of oil since the 1000 mile service. i'm going to be really happy to get my bike back, but i'm a little upset that it took so long for them to do the repairs and that it's had to get cracked open so early in its life. i don't smoke, i don't drink coffee, i'm a pretty boring guy. riding that bike is one of my few vices. i'm jonesing bad to get it back.

-we're coming up on the 1 year mark for losing my sister. she had stopped talking to me years before so i'm processing the loss much differently than the rest of my family. it's interesting to watch them. we've been a family for so long that some members of the family are having problems communicating. one person will say something and instead of actually hearing what that person is saying, the others are assuming they know what's being said and are tuning it out. it's amazingly weird to kind of watch this happening from the outside.

-did i mention that work bites? for some reason my new boss continually assumes i'm being negative. we'll have a conversation. the first ten minutes are a discussion of how what i said was incredibly negative and unsupportive of the department. then we have another ten minutes where i explain what i meant over and over and finally a light bulb goes off and we're good and on the same page. this isn't necessarily full biteage, but it does wear you down eventually.

-if you're looking for someone to add to your blog "must reads" i recommend erika. she's not trying to solve all the world's problems or anything. but she's funny and talks about life without whining. and she draws awesome stick figures on the computer. i'm jealous of her mad skills.

-is it weird that two of the quotes i keep returning to are ones i got from comic books 20 some odd years ago? "given the choice i'd rather laugh than cry any day" when asked how they could make jokes at such a terrible moment and "today's as good a day to die as any and the company is better than most" pops in my head when i'm realizing i'm about to do something really stupid.

-i realized i've still got some pent up anger. a couple days ago some serious rage washed over me. i don't know what triggered it off but it's just anger over people having the nerve to try and kill me. and it's totally irrational, they were doing what they believed to be their mission in life, i was doing mine. but there it is.

-i will be going to washington d.c. next weekend to see old friends and run in the army ten-miler. if you knew how bad my running was right now you'd be laughing with me while you read this. what's even funnier is that about an hour ago i agreed to run a leg of the denver marathon the following weekend. possibly two legs.

-there should be more, but i have to get back to work.