sorry... writer's block...

haven't written in awhile, but it hasn't been for lack of trying. i think i've popped open this window several times this last week or two, but either haven't been able to write anything down, or when i have, i've either been unable to save the entry after i wrote it out, or i kept getting distracted before i finished it.

so the various rants and raves have been discarded, but i do need to ask the question i spoke of earlier. sorry, it's not that big of a question, definately not worth the buildup. and it's not that controversial of course, just one of those "things that make you go hmmmmmmmmmm...."

so. trucks and guns. i go shoot a pistol or a rifle, i have a good time. i zone out for a little bit, shut my brain down, and really focus on the task at hand. normally i'm a little bit a.d.d. and my brain is all over the place, so it's a good little mental exercise. but when it's over, it's over. the gun gets cleaned, put away, and i carry on with whatever i next have planned. i like big trucks, but because of what they represent. either getting from point a to point b when alot of other vehicles couldn't instead of me having to walk that whole distance, or because they look cool, or i know they can haul all my gear or whatever. (have i mentioned having an appreciation for a singer sewing machine? i just like a well built, functional machine.)

but in more than one case, especially in the military, i've seen lots of women get excited after they've driven one of the big trucks for the first time, taken it off road and slung some mud around, or after they've fired weapons. i frequently hear them talking about how powerful they feel after doing one or the other. that's not quite something i get. where does that sense of power come from? i've heard alot of possible explanations for this, but these have mostly come from drunk males, and i wouldn't consider them to be experts on the subject. probably the consensus among them though, is that men are generally physically larger than women, and while there are extremes, either really large or really little men, for the most part we've got an average. and we're not used to being surrounded on a constant basis by people who are physically larger than us. so driving that bigger truck or shooting that weapon doesn't change things for us. but the non-tomboy women who don't do alot of the racing and chasing with the guys and who aren't competing with men in the physical arena are... i dunno. something the first time they climb up in the cab or put lead down-range. i dunno, is that reading too much into it? are they full of it?

the other interesting thing that has been pointed out is that some women's personalities almost seem to change when they get behind the wheel of the big SUV or pick-up. they become significantly more aggressive than when they're driving the little compact car, and don't seem to realize it.

thoughts? anyone experienced it that can break it down into small words for me?

thanks.